If you already read my about me page you may know that, like many people, I’m looking for my identity. I’m trying to find out who I want to be and what I want to do. I’ve been changing a lot recently. I was a very different person about a year and a half ago, until my life turned completely around when I turned 16. Why?
First, you’ll need a bit of context. When I was 15 years old, I was just ending a very difficult period in my life and was very lost. I had to sit for many International Exams and was under a lot of stress, so I tried to compensate over-eating. As anyone might imagine, I started putting up weight, so at the end of the year I was about 10 kg fatter and exhausted. I got good grades and at the time I was sure it was worth it because they brought me closer to the objective I had set for myself as a child: go to college abroad.
Right before I turned 16, I had a lot of extra weight -physically and emotionally- but was extremely excited. Why? Because I had this childish illusion that 16 was the best age of life, so I had waited for that birthday for many, many years and it was finally arriving. I was ecstatic because I felt my life was about to change. And I was right.
After turning 16, I started changing. At the beginning differences were tiny, almost imperceptible among all the things that happened in my life (school, study, schedule, etc.) but when I looked back, I could clearly see that many things were no longer like they used to be. I cut my hair (from hip length to shoulder length), started exercising and eating healthily and lost the extra weight. Finally I started feeling better about myself.
That year was awesome (as I hoped it would be) but I didn’t feel sad at all when it ended. I knew good things would arrive. I turned 17 as a calmer and more focused person. I discovered minimalism and realised I had been keeping many unnecessary in my bedroom, so I spent my summer holidays de-cluttering. Even if it was a long tiring process, it made me feel lighter and happier.
I started discovering who I really want to be. I lost more weight (almost 10 kg.) and changed the dream I had had since I was 8 to something I want even more and that really fits the lifestyle I want and the values I developed.
I think I grew up and matured, but I still have a lot to learn -as everybody, I believe-. I want to share this learning and development with all of you.
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